It’s time to change the movie trailer in my mind. For far too long, some of the images that I’ve carried around just don’t support the truth of who I am and who I’m becoming. The painting above is a great example of that. This is a mixed-media piece I did back in about 1987. For lack of a better title, and since it reflected how I felt when I painted it, I called it ‘Self Portrait’. If this were an image in the previews to the movie of my life, imagine the film that would follow.
Though most previews intend to lure one in to want to watch a film, the movie trailer in my mind to the film of my parenting life is loaded with all of my most horrific parenting moments. Every metaphorical explosion, chase scene, stinging word, monster mama bits – all those snippets run over and over again in my mind and remind me of a film I’d never want to see, let alone star in. (more…)